• I Remember once ..
• We were untainted & fresh ,
• We had free souls & spontaneous reactions ,
• We used to think simple things of this world ,
• 
  
• I Remember once ..
• We used to laugh out so hard ,
• We befriended others easily ,
• And shared so much we shouldn't have shared,
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• The beauty of honesty ,
• The purity of our hearts & theirs ,
• The feeling that we were a whole big family ,
• I Remember Once ,
• We thought out loud ,
• Acted as our hearts were raw ,
• Gave our trust for nothing in return ,
• 
  
• I Remember Once ..
• We used to compete who helped others more ?
• Who wrote a lecture better ?
• Who can finish that project faster ?
• I Remember Once ..
• We used to sit around , all 90 of us ,
• We used to eat group breakfasts together ,
• One would think a wild thought ,
• Others would start working on it ,
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• The joy was so much ,
• It spread to strangers too
• The fun was so huge ,
• We got others talking about it ,
• The creativity was such a burst ,
• Other colleges would try too ..
• We were alive ,, we were young ,
• Our souls would race with our bodies ..
• Sometimes our souls tripped in the race ,
• But there was always a hand holding out to pull us back .
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• We were a team ..
• It was us against any outsider.
• If it was bad ,
• We would make it hilarious .
• If it was hard ,
• We would make it bearable .
• If we were going down ,
• It was all of us together ..
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• Older ones did not understand this bond we had ,,
• They would start to look at us in a weird way ,
• Eyes started to portray meanings..
• We did not understand.
• Friends would hold on to unspoken words ,
• We did not learn to hear ..
• Signs we did not give that much of importance ,
• "Red flag"s as they told us in 3rd year..
• & the only words that were written ,
• I wished so bad that we did not read ..
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• That first whisper ..
• Our eyes would be so wide ,
• Our ears would not believe ,,
• Maybe they were hallucinations my dear ears ?
• Maybe I would believe that they were , like dear friends did.
• Maybe I want to be safe , mind & soul safe ?
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• That angel in disguise ,
• It was as merciful as a mother ,
• It would give us advice , on her behalf , on others behalf ,
• one advice after the other ..
• We would listen , We would trust ,
• & certainly we would change..
• We were Naive.
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• When that angel was not an angel ..
• When , for the first time ,
• We saw a person that would speak but not act ,
• That would lecture but would not do ,
• That when everyone goes home ,
• It would sit in the dark & work.
• You see , that's what we learned later..
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• We had too much patience ..
• Patience to believe that not all of this true ,
• That this was not a masquerade ,
• That that pretty face was not a mask ?
• & I remember Majda Alroomi when she said ,,
• And the mask ..
• Revealed a mask..
• That revealed a mask ..
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• That a chameleons had friends ?
• How would they keep up with it's endless camouflage ?
• I would wonder ..
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• We entrusted you ,
• We entrusted them ,
• And always ..
• We entrusted everyone..
• I Remember Once ,
• I would ask ..
• Why my dear ?
• Why are you blind , to sell your soul?
• For a grade ,, for attention ,,
• for a recommendation letter .. or just pure envy.
• What was that worth it ?
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• That I know ,,
• That the people that we saw got hurt ,,
• are not hurt at all .
• They are winners ..
• They are still pure ..
• They are still the great people they are.
• 
  
• I Remember Once ,
• That we would not be ,
• a mirror of their own ,,,
• But we changed didn't we .. ?
• We are not the free souls that we were once were ..
• We would not entrust that easily .
• 
  
• Time has evolved ,
• We have evolved too ..
• These whispers I still hear ..
• They will always lurk around ..
• Waiting for a willing ear.
• It's sad though ,,
• I miss the group spirit.
• I miss the believing the good of intentions ,
• well except of those with previous Hx , of course ..
• Of course.
• 
  
• I Remember Then ,
• That patience & time ,,
• Is enough to reveal everything ..
• That every word that was said ,
• Has a price..
• Every mask has been revealed ,,
• Without pursuing that.
• Time did that , for every person , good or bad.
• Although , it seems that we will trust no more ..
• Although it all started with what we did ..
• I see that all has gone away .. & this trust still remains ..

/ I'm happy that we were once a part of this huge wave of energy.

I remember each & every person I knew in this college & say " allah yithkorhom bil5air" ,

even the ones that I'm not comfortable with.

Well .. because they made life much more interesting :p

I do believe that each & everyone of us did something wrong somewhere somehow.

And I am truly sorry if I made anyone's experience of these years any less fun.

If I had one 2010 resolution , it would be to regain that group spirit again & to never hear a negative remark about the intentions of another human being. If I had a wish that I know it won't come true , it would be to apologize personally to the ones that I did wrong , & the ones that felt the need to do me wrong.

& still , I love being a 425 ♥ ........